Waiting on the Witch!!

I'm just waiting on the witch...I am 10 DPO today, and I am pretty sure the witch is going to rear her ugly head soon...(I really hope she does anyway, I'm ready to get back to trying) I had some spotting yesterday, so I'm not sure why that is...it's not something that I usually have, but with the MC, I am not surprised when anything happens...the main thing that I'm worried about is that I didn't O, and it really was me just having a fever for a few days, and then yesterday when my temp dropped the fever broke?? Again, simply speculation...and just me talking out loud.

I also found the perfect tattoo to remember my angel baby!! I have been planning on getting a tattoo for years, but couldn't totally decide what I may want permenantly. Well I have decided!!!



I am going to be doing a combination of the two pictures!! But I am so excited to be getting it...I just have to find out how much it would cost and save the money now, and then I'm good to go!! So excited...I just have to decide if I want to put it over my uterus after my babies are born, or if I am going to put it on the bottom of my back. I don't necessarily want it in a place everyone is going to see it, because it's just for me and baby J!! Oh, and I want to put a J in it somewhere.

Hope all is well with everyone!!

August 26, 2009

It has been just over a month since my loss. I have been doing ok. NTNP sucks!!! LOL...although, I'm doing more NT than NP because I really did not want to get pregnant this cycle. Weird for me to say, I know...but I just needed to give my body a rest and a break!! PLUS, I go to see the fertility dr. again on the 2nd of September, and I hope that he will let me know if he still wants to run all the original tests, and perhaps we can find something out from there. AND I wanted to try a cycle with the fermara, so that I O earlier on in the cycle. I have heard that the chance of MC is slightly higher when you O later on in your cycle...and I didn't O till CD 29 again, so was glad that we didn't try, cause that is just one day before I did last time. I don't know if I could bear to go through another loss, so wanted to do whatever it was in my power NOT to have that happen!!

I am not 5 DPO, and looking forward with happiness that soon I will be TTC again, and even though I will not be doing it the way that I wanted, and will be doing it with MA...it's a means to getting my little bundle of joy that I so want.

Things that irritate me...I found out last week (when I was visiting my brother and my adorable new neice) that a boy that I used to babysit is DAYS away from having an oopsie baby. :( How is that fair...without even trying, it just happens, and STICKS??!!! sigh...a means to an end, a means to an end...

On a bit of a sadder note...I seem to have some sort of eye infection...:( boo erns...:( I have antibiotic eye drops, and I hope that it goes away soon...I am currently doing everything one eyed...cause I didn't wear my contact in the eye that has the infection, which makes sense...

Anyway, after not writting for a month, I guess that's good!! Hope everyone is doing well...wish me luck cause in about 9 days, I can get back to TTC!!! YIPPEE!!!